यंदा बरंच काही शिकायचंय!

यंदाचा पावसाळ्यात ओलं होण्या ऐवजी थोडं भिजायला शिकायचंय,
सर्वांचा विचार सोडून थोडं मनमोकळं जगायला शिकायचंय,
स्वातःचाच विचारांचा बंधनातंन मुक्त व्हायला शिकायचंय,
भुतकाळाला विसरुन पुन्हा जगायला शिकायचंय.

विसरलेल्या विषयांना पुन्हा वाचून नव्याने शिकायचंय,
नाती बनवायलाही पुर्वी सारखचं शिकायचंय,
चुकांना थोडं सुध्रवायला शिकायचंय,
सोडून गेलेल्या लोकांना विसरायला शिकायचंय.

आहेत त्या नात्यांना जोपासायला शिकायचंय,
कामातनही स्वतःसाठी वेळ काढायला शिकायचंय,
पाहिजे तिथे 'नही' म्हणायला शिकायचंय,
माझ्याचं भुतकाळातनं मला पुन्हा जगायला शिकायचंय....

Feeling lost....

Off lately, I have been watching people lose temper at very small things, like quarreling over why someone parked a car in someone else's spot or why someone didn't do homework or why someone was late by a minute.

Although mistakes need to be corrected and their repetition should be avoided, aren't we losing our minds over meager things? How much is your kid's X class score really going to affect his life's goals? Does that even matter, in a period of, say 5yrs?  We're probably unnecessarily increasing our expectations, not just from people, but also from ourselves. 

We want NaMo to transform the nation in 1yr. The year we join the job, we want to over perform and get maximum hike in learning years. And there begins the frustration phase.

We want maximum grades, we need more and more money, secured job,more power, more speed....... Everything just more. There's no ending to this greed. We've forgotten to make time for ourselves. We've started forgetting to enjoy. We're just postponing enjoyment. We'll have a party after we achieve this, or after our turnover reaches that figure or after I accomplish this. Why are we procrastinating with enjoyment? We've become so serious that earlier we used to postpone work and now we postpone enjoyment.

Breaks aren't actually breaks anymore as we carry cell phones and laptops. We never go off grid. Why are we becoming so obsessed with work? 

Are we really progressing? We're all dying in few yrs. Are we on the right track? What is our life's goal? Are we taking away degrees, property, .....with us after our death.

Running behind science, haven't we left the philosophy of life totally behind?

I'm taking enough time for myself this summer. I still haven't figured out a reason to live. I'm not serious about my career, relations, education anymore, for something more important I feel is finding a reason to live, a reason which'll keep me motivated for the rest of my life.

And the search is on.