I know you are a bit too sentimental. It is both blessing and a curse to feel so very deeply. I know, you are depressed right now, for you believed in some one far more than they deserved. I know, like always, like all other problems, you'll get over this too.
I know you've been too serious for years together, and have been modifying plans for other. I know you've helped a lot of people, been nice, kind, have scored good grades, been a good human. But may be this is just another exam. You need to crack it just like the others you did.
Life doesn't end here. Its just another beginning. For now, please focus on your career. Everything will change. Even you and I and our relation. We learn something each day. May be it was a time to learn something big. This is it. You've a situation, and you're here to deal with it. No hacks, no copy possible, no one else can appear this for you. You just need a break from some people. That's it.
Its a new life now, with more independence. Enjoy your job, learn something new, go out, roam around, watch movies, stay up late for yourself. You've all the time for yourself now. Visit relative, visit your hometown, visit your college, meet people, make new friends. Surf the net, when was it last that you visited a site to read research papers? When was it last that you went to CCD alone, had a coffee, listened to songs for hours? Its time now. Live, enjoy, I'll always be there. There are a lot of people like us. Empathetic! I know you and I overthink. I know you don't like seeing some unknown person being treated badly. I know you raise your voice when no one else does. I know you try to protect the weak. This is what makes us weak sometimes. But, lets have a look at the positive side now.
I don't know if God exists. I'm an atheist.
For years, we've saved a lot of weak people getting abused verbally. We've taught hundreds of people small things and refused to take credit of it. We've did small activities of thousands of unknown people at unknown places. What we've earned is a satisfaction at that moment. That day, that smile must have given you peace which no one else could ever understand. We've a big heart. I know you curse yourself for having it too big for letting go many people, sacrificed many things. But, didn't they reach their targets because we let them achieve theirs. I know you've walked out of your path daily and spent time in someone else's 'dream come true' activities. I know you haven't been adequately given credit, adequately motivated, adequately appreciated, but still you did something good today. Do you know why? Because you are a good human. Because you know how life should be. There isn't any problem with you. The problem is with them. They are too weak hearted, selfish, focused to ever know the essence of living.
I know you wonder why you are alive today. We're alive for we feel the world better. We think more, that is the reason why we sleep more many a times. We think too much, we need rest too. You know what, people tell you their secrets, because they feel you can keep them safe. Isn't it amazing that people trust you in a matter of minutes? It is because you feel everything so deeply. Because you cry on someone else's problem. I know you've help millions in coming out of negativity, you've motivated them so much so that at times you find someone waving at you and asking if you remember them. You've already forgotten those whom you helped. Its because you and I attract problems. It is problems which defines us, we can't live without them. We spend all our energy on solving someone else's problems.
I wish you luck to continue with the same enthusiasm. Wouldn't you love if someone else helps you out, out of no expectation? That's the love we've been sharing with the world.
PS: If, by any chance, you feel connected to yourself with this, pls contact me. I need to know more empathetic people.
